I'M OBSESSED WITH BOOKS

Every time I go to the bookstore, my heart dies a little more. 
Being in a bookstore is like being in heaven.

You know when you just have one of those days, where you just feel a little bit..'meh'? 
Yeah, I had one of those today. 
I decided to have a 'book day' where I would bring the books I were currently reading and go somewhere far away and read. 
I know how incredibly boring and pointless some people might think that would be but I find these things kind of fun and peaceful. 
I love books! I'm currently reading 'The Dark Soul' by Paula Morris. 

MY PROBLEM

For as long as I always asked myself, 

"What is the main problem I have that I need to fix? What is blocking my blessing?".

And I finally revealed the answer. My problem is, I got a problem with forgiving people when I should. 

I'm so obsessed with being mature so much, that I start becoming too serious and aggresive. 

I fear that people will think I'm weak and walk over me if I don't be hard on people. 

But the down fall to that is, I'm the one scaring the people around me. 

I'm so busy being a rebel, the rebel against the people and things that is corrupted. 

But it's me that became corrupted. 

I focus on power so much, that I lose who I am, like I'm good or something. 

I sat alone in my room, meditating to forgive the people that angered me in my past life. 

I thought to myself, I've lived my entire life so far, with people doing anything to anger me. 

And mostly on purpose. 

But through all the hurt I've been through, and the destruction I've caused, I forgive everything in my past. 

I'm done thinking about it. I don't want to ponder on it no more.I'm starting to learn how to forgive people. 

But it's not gonna be easy over night. I forgive a lot of people, but I won't forget.

A SMALL PIECE OF MIND TOWARDS A GUY

One day I met with charming looking guy from Facebook. But the charming doesn't stop there. As I get to know him better, he became sweetest. This might sound cheezy or some sort, but even though I may not have any sweet words to describe him, that does not mean I am not trying my best to tell everyone how wonderful he is. In fact, scrape that, he is beyond awesome. No words can describe how awesome he is. As long as walking side by side with him seeing his happy face, it's going to be the happiest moment ever. For me and I hope for him as well. It's been awhile since I last seen someone like him. I know for a fact different people have different way of defining a charming guy, but for me, my definition for perfection is equal to him. That's what makes him charming in my eyes. Some people may not see eye to eye with me in this matter, but who needs others opinion. I am in my own world. Sometimes I feel like the kid at the corner of the streets, watching my sandbox filled with toys being played by others. It feels sucky but everytime I think of his face, it somewhat brightens my day which not many can do that. Sounds cheezy isn't it? haha oh well .. One thing I've learned from my old man is " The best and most beautiful things in the world cannot be seen or even touched they must be felt with the heart". I know it's hard to say this but I have to agree because it's not just the beauty that can be seen from the naked eye, but from within as I have to feel it with my experiences and the moments I've spent with him. It is truly a magnificent feeling. As time passes by, I still have more to say but I'll continue this rightful act of girlliness some other time. Thank You. For you (MFMS)

SWEETEST THING EVER!

Everyone has a weakness, but I have two; 

Everything you say and everything you do

DO YOU STILL REMEMBER?

 

LET'S HOLD HAND TOGETHER

Let’s walk with our hands swinging together. 

A walk that we are going to experience as couples. 

The trials we’ll experience will test us how tight is our hands together. 

And when we reach the end we’ll see our everlasting happiness.

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I've got the best thing in the world,
Cause I got you in my heart,
And this screw little world,
Let's hold hand together,
We can share forever,
Maybe someday the sky will be colored with our love.

I wake up in the morning,

Feeling emptiness in my heart,
This pain is just too real,
I dream about you, with someone else,
Please say that you love me,
That we'll never be apart.

You have to promise,

That you will be faithful,
And there will be lots and lots of love,
It is the thing that really matters in this world...

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