I want to give my boyfriend space even when we don't see each other for 1 day. Somehow we always end up texting and I always want to talk to him. I can't "act" busy because I have nothing to really be busy with. I don't want to go out into the community and join a boring club or whatever. They're all boring to me. I have a great relationship, but I'm constantly worrying about trying to be the best girlfriend I can be and setting my own personal problems aside.
I just don't feel happy with myself and I don't want
it affecting my great relationship. I don't know how to talk to my boyfriend
about ALL of this without seeming clingy (I'm not normally clingy like right
now). He gives me attention all the time and I'm happy about that, but I want
to be missed by him more. It seems like I'm always missing him no matter if
it's a few hours apart, but we see each other so often that HIM missing ME
isn't an option. I want him to want me like he wanted me in the beginning of
the relationship.
Ugh. Sorry for long rant. I hate expecting so much of myself
and giving happiness to others, other than myself. I'm thinking about taking a
few days away from each other by being less chatty and not being physically
around him. I just don't want it to hurt either of us. I expect to accomplish
this without any problems, but I know I wouldn't be able to deal without him
for a few days. And to bring this up to him out of the blue will have him worry
that there might be something wrong with him or our relationship. Blah. I hate
being confused.
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